Bored

Sup?? I am so bored so I came to read my site and bost blogs and stuff......Well, out of 10 blogs now 11 only 1 comment made by Kayla. I think she is cool...and so is Mallorie....OMG I can't believe I have to wear Anne's skirt...She hates me so she probably is dreading that I out of all people am wearing her skirt. Right now I am listening to Someday by Nickelback it is a good song it is one of my favorites. I don't know what is going on in my life.....I liked Ben last night and a little bit this morning but I so totally don't anymore. Yay!! It is kinda fun not liking anyone.....I mean I think some guys are hott and sweet and if they asked me out I might consider it but still......Now I am listening to How Come by D-12. You know what I am so sick of Frau, I think a lot of people are.... I wish Jess was our couch now not next year....I might not do cheerleading next year.....Actually in a way I am in a depressed mood......For a few reasons....
-1)I don't really have true friends at school....I mean I have friends but no one I can always count one....I mean I can tell Mal stuff but when I sit by her and Brooke at Science they always ignore me. In a way I will always be an outkast.
-2)My dad is thinking about moving.......Away from Michigan......A few states to list: Flordia, Maine, Vermont, or somewhere on the coast like NJ and stuff or the oppisite way of OREGON...At first I was kinda like please no.....but I mean after school today I was like what the heck a few people would miss me at first but then they wouldn't care anymore.... I don't make that much of a difference.....if I do it doesn't seem like it no one really shows me that I do I mean in any way or form.
-3)I dont' know really I am just sick of life in a way i guess.........

See then people tell me or actually ask me if I would ever do sucide my anser is hec.................................................................NO!!! I don't think life can get so bad....even if it does and it has hit rock bottom then all that means is that it can only go up. I almost lost 2 of my friends to sucide and I still might lose one....I hate it they don't know how much they mean to me even though I try to tell one everyday but the one the is o.k. now...well i don't know....but the one that isn't I tell everyday that I love her and if I lost her I don't know what I would do.....I think I might totally go nuts..

People think I am nuts now well they have no clue what-so-ever........Nobody knows the problems that go on in my head and never will cause no one cares or even asks.....Well, I think I have typed a lot now so I am going to go now......I will write tomorrow